I Deactivated Facebook

I deactivated Facebook. I deleted my Snapchat, Instagram and Twitter accounts, too. No worries, I’m thinking the same thing. Why?!

Maybe it’s a midlife crisis? Maybe I went too far in my quest to declutter? Who knows? What I do know is it’s been challenging. Challenging in that it is an addiction.

Wake up, check Facebook. Have a coffee, check Facebook. Need to put off a task, check Facebook. Need to wait for supper to cook, check Facebook. Need to pretend you’re important, check Facebook. Need to act like you care, check Facebook. Get in to bed, check Facebook. Can’t sleep, check Facebook.

It’s endless and exhausting. It’s such a time waster of life and that’s time I’ll never get back. Sadly, even when my kids try to talk to me, I will finish my Facebooking before giving them my full attention. Even then, I don’t think it’s my “full attention”. Half-assed maybe. To me, that’s time we can’t get back and what kind of message was that to them? Such a sad a reality to face.

I went to Grande Prairie on a whim. I left Friday afternoon, picked up my girl on the way and jetted on. It was nice to get away. I realized how nice it is to not be distracted during time with my girl. We shopped, ate, listened to music, but more importantly, we talked. Conversation with anyone, especially young adults, is hard to come by these days so it was nice to connect with her. Life is too short and we often take so much of it for granted.

Without social media, I’ve had to fill my time with other things which is hard when you usually filled it with Facebook. Anyone who knows me knows I’m not much of a socializer, not much a “peopley-person”, and really just like biding my time at home. I’ve listened to more audiobooks, podcasts and watched more Netflix than any other time in my life. I finished my second full audiobook, Trevor Noah’s Born a Crime and I highly recommend it.

This Sunday, since the hubs didn’t have to work, we stopped by our cabin and then went for a walk. We took the dogs and started walking down a cutline at my family’s trapline. It was nice to be outside, no social media – just us and nature. Plus our dogs were loving it too. We surely don’t do that enough and I appreciate quality time with my hubs. He’s the best husband a girl could ask for.

So with that all being said, it’s day 4 of no Facebook and here I am. Music playing, sun shining, I have some appointments to tend to and then I get to see my son from days off of work. Fall is my favorite time of year. Life is good but even better without social media occupying my time and attention.

R

A Little Update About Life

Hey! It’s been way too long right? I KNOW! Want to know what’s up? Follow along. It could get long.

Since the Kamloops IRS recovery of 215 students who didn’t make it home, I’ve been on a journey. That news uncovered in me, a whole lot of trauma and mental health issues. I was thrust in to rage and hate but also sadness and deep pain. It brought forth all the what ifs and what could have beens had my parents not attended or had they not made it home. I wouldn’t be here if they didn’t but also how different my life might have been had they not been forced to attend IRS.

So with that news, I was forced in to a journey I didn’t plan on taking but here I am. Still. Thankfully. It’s been hard, painful and exhausting but more and more I find the bits of peace I long for. I’m not getting any younger and this healing journey always astounds me, it never ends. There is always something.

Fast forward to these last few weeks. I’ve been decluttering our home like a mad woman. Why? I realized that all the clutter impacted my peace and caused me overwhelm and a sense of chaos. A lot of my life has been chaos, so that really takes a toll at this point of my journey, so the more structure and order I have, the more at peace I feel.

Since unloading 5+ boxes of stuff at the local thrift store and making some money on the items I sold, I have counter space! I don’t have a junk bin on the counter any more! I wake up feeling relieved and rejuvenated. It’s the best feeling ever. I woke up this morning thinking, “Man, I love waking up to a clear and clean space – clutter-free space!” It’s the best thing I’ve done for myself in this journey to date. I don’t feel so overwhelmed by STUFF when I come in to our home. I’m not annoyed and disgusted by the things we have in our space. (Don’t get me wrong, there’s always room for improvement! Yes, I’m that girl!) I have to thank The Minimalists for their podcast and Netflix shows for the inspiration. They speak my language and I love the concept so much. They’re my super heroes!

Hmm, what else? I’ve been super elated to see so many others decluttering their lives too! They’ve commented thank-yous and updates with me and it brings me great joy to see others unloading all the dead weight. That’s what clutter is – it’s dead weight, negative energy. Who wants that? NOT ME. Keep moving forward, friends. We got this!

With that, thank you for joining me here. That wasn’t too long after all. I will be cleaning up (ahem, decluttering) my social media and digital life so I hope to write more here so I hope you come back. I have much to be thankful for today, we all do, we just have to take a look around, then get up and get on with it. Cheers!

R