Saturday Sunrise Smudges

It’s a beautiful windy, chinook-like morning. It’s Saturday. I decided to smudge and seek a ‘message’ from Creation, God, my higher power, angels (I’m ok with whatever you refer to them as). I refer to them as all of the above. I often speak to my Grandma, aunties, uncles and cousins who’ve passed to the spirit world.

I made a coffee, after venturing outside to feel the warm winds refresh my mind and body, and lit my smudge. I seriously love days like today. This warm winds reminds me of renewal, blowing away all the negativity and garbage. Ahhh! I grabbed all 3 sets of cards. I don’t often choose all 3 but today, felt like I needed them all.

I smudged and prayed, thanked Creator for this beautiful day and the gifts he’s provided me with and one by one, I pulled a card and read the messages, each in the order they’re shown below.

IMG_6343The message reads:

“Confidence. Entering your power. Standing strong. You are a leader. Stepping into the light. Let your truth be heard and felt by others. Make a stand in life. You carry deep inner wisdom. You are a teacher and a leader in the deepest sense of the words. You are a beacon for others.

In native cultures, the elders, tribal chiefs and clan leaders are looked to for advice and leadership. When this card chooses you, it’s time to step into your leadership role. An elder walks the path, stomps the grass down, and throws the boulders out-of-the-way so the path is easier for others. Sometimes you might find yourself alone or tired, but know that you’re doing what you’re doing is making a difference in the lives of many. The greatest leaders are those who know how to serve, supporting others to reach their dreams. Even if you’ve been in the background in the past, right now it’s your turn to step forward and become the light for others.

Being an elder and a tribal leader means speaking the truth, even if it’s hard or even if you’re afraid. If there’s anyone you need to stand up to you, this is the time. Being a leader means supporting others, so if there’s anything you need to support or make amends with, this is the time.”

IMG_6344My angel message was pretty clear:

“You are a giver and God loves you for that. The more that you allow me to give to you, the more you will be able to give to others. Take care of yourself, and don’t allow yourself to be swayed from this important mission. Take steps right now to create time for relaxation. You will feel happier and have more peace of mind as a result, which will benefit everyone in your life.”

In essence, take care of ME first so that I can take care of you – my family, friends, community and so on and so forth. I’ve learned the importance of that with age. I guess the saying is true, “with age comes wisdom.”

IMG_6345Finally, the Sacred Path Cards: Council Fire. Isn’t that something else?

“It takes courage to make changes in your life and all changes must begin with a decision. Do it and don’t look back. Life awaits you in all its beauty. There is no need to make your decisions based upon another’s. Consider all possibilities and how your decision affects others, then be courageous enough to act. Find your truth and stick to it.”

How many more messages do I need to tell me that what I’m doing is the right thing? If I could tell you the things I know, I would. If I could tell you the things I speak up against, I would. As I mentioned before, there’s going to be those that think what I have to say is baseless and that because I resigned, I shouldn’t have a seat on Council, but I’m doing it because I know it’s my duty to stand up for what is right for our community. I know what I stand for and that’s all that matters. I’m doing it because I stand for change on a larger scale. Our community and our people are worth fighting for and I’ll do that for the rest of my days.

So, after all that, I decided I’d write this blog and as I was coming to start writing, I started to laugh thinking of the Elder card. “Hey, wait a minute!” I think I am the ‘Elder’ of the bunch and so does that make the wisest? Does that make me the best candidate? Probably doesn’t mean much, other than I have the experience (like a few others) and I am farther along in life (by age only) but I definitely believe, these cards are a good way to start any day and assure me I am on the right path. Go Renee!

Have a super Saturday, family and friends. Life is good and beautiful, enjoy it. I feel alive and my spirit is happy. Bless us all.

Mah’si Creator.



Taking a Stand

Good morning.

I thought long and hard about posting this but after everything I’ve been dealing with personally and professionally, I feel I must. It’s not only taking a stand against wrongdoings, abuse and bullying against me but all people. Why do we accept this behaviour amongst adults but expect our kids not to bully and hurt one another? What kind of role modeling is that? That is why I’m posting this. It makes me sick that this is our community today. People hurt one another without thinking what the other is going through. Thankfully, not everyone participates in this type of online behaviour but sadly many do. I can’t change that because when you know better you do better and one day those people will know better.

I’ve let my name stand to stand up against this type of shit. Say what you want about me but don’t think I won’t defend myself. You have every right to your opinion but I also have a right to defend my name, my character and my choices, which also does not mean I have to justify taking care of myself to you or anyone. I did what I had to do for me at the time and that’s that. If you don’t like that, that’s your issue – not mine.

Written October 22

Why do you think it’s acceptable to attack me online? I am taking a stand against your abuse, bullying, lateral violence or whatever else you want to call it. Just because I let my name stand or am on Council (when I get voted in) doesn’t give anyone the right to publicly bash me on Facebook or anywhere else for that matter. This is one of the biggest issues of our time and some people, particularly one family, chooses to participate in it. Say what you want about me but remember, I have a right to take a stand against your abuse.


Why is your behaviour acceptable? It’s not. I make a conscious choice to NOT do that online, that’s what leaders and members who want change do. There’s a difference between stating your opinion and bashing. I’m here if you wish to ask me questions, ask away.

As I mentioned in my previous blog that clearly they’ve all read – mahsi, by the way! – I stand for transparency and accountability but if they recall “someone’s” Mom got in to the seat I resigned from and then another Councillor resigned, so is that my fault, too? Everyone is entitled to take care of themselves and I will NOT apologize to anyone for doing just that. They are also entitled to their opinion and poor behaviour but I will not tolerate it since it’s about me.

“I will not tolerate your abuse just because I’m letting my name stand or just because I’m on Council (when I get there). You’re entitled to your opinion as am I but don’t think I won’t address what you have to say since you think you can bash me on Facebook. Instead of bashing me, why not try to ask me questions and seek to understand the reasons for my actions and choices. You have no idea what I was going through at the time so simply put – don’t vote for me. Trust me, I’ll survive either way. Vote Renee!”

So in all this they’re also blaming me for “costing the Nation thousands of dollars”, “during a time when our members are facing job loss and tough times in general”. What does one have to do with the other? Like I said, the second by-election is a result of another council seat becoming vacant, something I had no control over and moreover, what do by-elections have to do with job loss? So everyone not working is now my fault like it was previous Council’s fault for putting a stop to the oil and gas industry? Thank you for placing so much power in my hands.
When FNFN chooses to change their election code – what’s happening with that anyway?? – than they can include the stipulation that prohibits people from running if they resign. That’ll be fine by me. Since that’s not the case, I’ve let my name stand and you can vote Renee on November 22.
Have a fantastic day!

PS – Vote Renee on November 22!



“Renee is running for a seat she resigned from?!”

Yes. Yes I am.

That very question was posted on a friend’s Facebook post and this blog answers what I’m sure a lot of other people are thinking, too. I had planned to post this blog a week ago before I’d saw the question and just hadn’t yet. Today is the day.

Vote for Renee.
Vote Renee. For transparency. For accountability.

So here you go…

I’ve been nominated for a seat on Council for the remainder of this term ending in August 2018. This comes as a result of resigning from the same term.

I know what you are thinking, “Why is she running when she resigned?” It’s been a year since I resigned and I’ve had time to reset and refocus, and more importantly, focus on my health. I’m confident that I can contribute in a meaningful way as I believe I’ve always done. I’m not here to try sway your vote or seek sympathy. I believe that voters already know who they’re voting for at the close of any nominations, so you’re either going to vote for me or you’re not. It’ll be the way the majority wants it to be. I will be ok either way but remember, it is YOU – the community – who elects Council.

I contribute to the community regardless of whether I’m on Council or not. I don’t require a seat on Council to do that. I speak up when I want action and I speak up against things I feel are wrong but more than that, I have hope and a deep love for our community and our people. The only difference is that on Council, elected members have more of a position to invoke change but only if they see the need for change on a broader scale, not just at that table. There are so many things left undone by the many leaders who have come and gone because there is never enough time. A two-year term certainly limits how much a group of people can do so I won’t promise you anything. My time is limited.

“I speak up when I want action and I speak up against things I feel are wrong but more than that, I have hope and a deep love for our community and our people.”

What I can promise you, though, is to always speak up for the people – our community – and to seek answers and be available for you. That’s a given and that will not change, on or off Council. I firmly believe that transparency and accountability for everyone is key, especially Council and senior management. Council has to remember they work FOR the people. The people are the real leaders, it’s not the other way around. When you vote, remember that. YOU are the boss, YOU are the leaders and the membership should ALWAYS come first. They most definitely should have a voice when it comes to the direction our Nation is going.

So there you have it, my “why I’m running” talk. I’m running because I want to give the community a voice. If you disagree with my choice to let my name stand that’s ok. I know I won’t fit everyone’s ideal Councillor mold but I’m me and if you really know me, you know I’m not blowing smoke up your ass. Like in my first term, I will continue to be the voice you elected, and speak up for the people so no matter the outcome, I will always be here to help, support and encourage positive change for our community. No one needs a seat on Council to contribute in a good way that benefits all. You either are part of the solution or part of the problem.

Power to the people; the way it should always be.

Before I go, I want to personally thank Kendra and Monica McMillan for their vote of confidence in my ability to lead our Nation and for their nomination. I proudly accept this nomination for a seat on Council and look forward to being a voice at the council table for YOU – our community.


“No needs a seat on Council to contribute in a good way that benefits all.”

Vote Renee Lomen
Vote Renee Lomen. A leader for the PEOPLE.
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Vote Renee Lomen on Nov. 22

Jello Legs + Sweat = Radiance

Hello, World, and all its beautiful inhabitants. I’m back. Same idea, different location.

Last week, I made a list of 100 goals. One of my goals was to revive my blog. I want to…Write. Shit. Down. Lay my thoughts out in text. Here. In this blog about my life and shit.

So, here I am. Maybe you’re here, too. Maybe people read this, maybe they don’t but even if they don’t, I am writing and that was my goal! Whoooo! I have stuff to offer in my head and heart and I am excited for what is to come so I’m going to keep writing and writing some more. You’ll read it eventually. Wink!

It’s been one week today, since I participated rather reluctantly, in Transformation Weekend with Erin Skye Kelly at Infinite Strength Wellness Fitness Centre and well, I feel I have been transformed like some kind of butterfly or something. It’s actually pretty amazing. Not even shittin’ ya.


I tried to talk myself out not going because it was a Saturday and I like to do nothing on Saturday – it’s one of my days off and all. Plus, I don’t have a social life and I really like just chilling around the house and staying in PJs. Hey! There’s nothing wrong with that!

I texted the owner, Toni, who is also a friend from her NLC Recruiter days and tried to get her to tell me something that would be the deal breaker for me.

“Is there going to be tables and chairs?” I texted. “I don’t want to be sitting on yoga mats and shit all day, ” dreading it already. Not that I have anything against yoga or mats, I just really tried to talk myself out of not going. All the while bitching out my cousin, Crystal, because she was feeling the same. I can jam out but she can’t I rationalized. I talked her in to registering, after all. Eye roll.

“Tables and chairs,” Toni texted back, “Trust. Come, it’ll be good.”

That was it. I went. I couldn’t jam on Toni when she’s been there with me through a lot of ups and downs and I wanted to support her doing this for Fort Nelson. Like, I was doing her some sort of favour, right? Eye roll. I had to tell myself what the hell ever I could to make myself go. That was it and I went. Have to support the friends!

I am so fucking happy and have never felt this alive.


Saturday came and I got my socks knocked off. I felt like I’ve not felt in a long, long time – ALIVE! Focused and clear. I don’t want to talk too much about Transformation Weekend because it will be different for everyone and I don’t want to ruin the excitement for you. I will say, though, I’m beyond grateful for the spark it lit within me. I feel revived.

Remember the 100 goals I mentioned? Well, one of them was to lose weight and today I started my gym sessions with Toni! Yayyy! I turned 42 and have been telling myself for some time (since I turned 40) that I didn’t want to feel this way anymore and finally, it’s time. Enough talking, more doing. Action, baby! We need action! So I showed up today ready to get sweaty and that’s exactly what happened. I felt like I had accomplished so much in just 40 minutes. I feel alive – still! And, that is super.

I would never have imagined I’d feel this great in just one week all because I took time out of my weekend and took care of ME! I’m worth it.

Jello legs + sweat = radiance. I am beaming inside AND out and that is what life is all about. This place of peace.




I am so fucking happy and have never felt this alive. 42 is going to be the best one yet!